As you might have understood, my life is a bit scattered right now. In the mornings I wake up with something what feels like a block of concrete on my chest. Probably because I've been dreaming of him, but luckily I almost never remember my dreams. I've realized one thing though and that is that if you fake smile and laugh that laugh that isn't true but sound like someone else's and ignore the burning feeling that appears in your stomach as soon as someone mention his name, then it can go hours without one single thought of him. And then it actually feels like everything is going to be okay.
On another, much happier, note; I've found an apartment! A tiny little place in St Pauli, around the corner from where I used to live last year. I'm moving in tomorrow and I'm so excited to finally get to unpack. Although I won't sleep there until Sunday since I'm going to Jakob's summer house tomorrow. We're 7 people who's going to stay up to late, go to the beach, BBQ and drink beer for breakfast. Couldn't think of a better way to spend a weekend.