This morning when I walked outside it was so cold that I felt like my bones were slowly turning into frozen vegetables. Everywhere around me there seemed to be couples making out. Right outside my door, by the traffic light, next to me on the subway and all I could think was "Ugh gross who makes out at 9.30 am before coffee? I want that too". I caught my reflection in the subway window and my beanie looked so weird. I came to work and I had to wait 10 minutes for coffee. I had a lot to do all day, but things just went wrong and I constantly kept sending my messages off before finishing my sentences making everybody think I'm a fucking lunatic who can't write but I'm somehow a copywriter. My hair was dirty and I regretted not showering every time I went to the bathroom and looked myself in the mirror. I somehow made it through the day and got home only to have forgotten one thing I needed for the tuna pasta I was making for dinner. The tuna. So let's talk about things I look forward to, only to forget this blah of a day.
In one week and one day my baby Frida is coming to stay with me for a whole week. I've taken two days off for the occasion plus that I'm off on Martin Luther King Day! We'll go out for dinner and drinks and dress up and talk about things like life and stuff. I LOVE GIRLFRIENDS THEY ARE THE BEST.
Going home to Sweden. It's happening y'all. And I'm so excited. Hopefully coming home will have me chill down a bit. I'm feeling really stressed about my future and career which is crazy talk because I'm only 23 years old and I have plenty of time to take wrong turns and find my way back. But still I feel like everyone is driving past me and I'm still here without a license. Literally. What is time even? Do we ever really know what we want? Because right now all I want is to binge watch Making a Murderer and eat popcorn.
Going to Egypt to visit Mayan. This is not decided yet and I don't know when I'll get the money for the flight, but I really want to fly down to Cairo to spend some time with my queen and to see where she's from and how her life is. I miss her so.
Go on a summer vacation with my girlfriends. Rent a house by the water in Croatia or in the mountains in Italy and do nothing for a week. Eat fresh fruit for breakfast, read, get some sun, eat olives and drink ice cold coke in the shade, cook dinner at the house, stay up late drinking wine. Repeat every damn day.
Way out west! I'm going this year for sure. I haven't been for so many years now and all I want to is to go with a big group of friends and just party for a whole weekend.
What do you look forward to? Tell me and give me some good vibes.