I walked Emma to the subway early this morning and hugged her goodbye. This past week went by way too fast and I just feel like she should be here all the time. I don't see the point in her going back to Sweden. Who cares about jobs and boyfriends and families? Just stay here with me.
I'm feeling weirdly emotional right now. Nervous and weary. You know when you feel like if someone were to touch you you'd instantly break into tears, but at the same time you just want someone to hold you? It's always weird for me to say goodbye to my friends when they visit. I'm so used to it that I should be immune. But it's just that when they leave everything feels so empty and quiet. Even if it's just been a few days, you get used to venting and leaning on them and laughing in a way only possible with friends who know you better than you know yourself.
To get out of my little anxiety bubble I'll go work out, paint my nails and then make a cute boy kiss me all day. That will do.